Hidden Blessings

Hidden blessings, getting grounded, learning lessons, share your story. Fuck, right now it feels like the “do the dishes and the laundry, Cindarellaaaaaa”. I’m tired. I’m tired of learning lessons and I still don’t know exactly what grounded means. I know what it used to mean and I was good at that particular grounding cause I’ve always been good at not following the rules but I have yet to figure out exactly what getting grounded means. I even bought myself a grounding mat but haven’t connected the stupid dots as to what it means and exactly how it works.

It’s been a rough weekend for me on a spiritual level feeling like I’m stuck and it really bums me out because there’s nothing I want more than to be tapped into my spiritual gifts so I can truly be helping others on a level that’s fucking phenomenal. I’m so ready to prove to everybody that it was or is for purpose and yes all the bullshit I’ve had to endure, overcome, heal from and grow. But clearly I still have more to do. Ugh, it’s frustrating as fuck. It baffles me how much of a rollercoaster it really is. One day I’m fine and the next I’m not and then I’m okay and then I’m not and next I’m on top of the world again.

 

It’s 3:30 in the morning, woke up an hour ago and now I’m bright eyed and bushy tailed typing away. I’m gonna vote that it’s exactly where I’m supposed to be but with no idea as to why. I think that’s probably the hardest part of my spiritual journey and even harder trying to explain to other people, especially those who don’t embrace spirituality. Most of the time I’m okay with not needing to know exactly but other times like tonight I’d give anything to know when I’m gonna reap the rewards of everything I continuously reassure myself is all for friggin’ purpose.

I fell asleep with my headphones on listening to YouTube only to wake up in the middle of a tarot reading which has happened a few times and each time because there was something I needed to hear and tonight was no different. It’s exactly what I needed to hear to get me out of my funk, if not completely then hopefully enough that tomorrow I will be back to my optimistic self. I haven’t journaled much this weekend which probably has something to do with it, I haven’t really communicated with my angels either and (4:44 on my computer clock, stupid things always an hour off but angel number nonetheless) certainly haven’t meditated which I’m sure has a lot to do with it. Instead I spent the weekend making jewelry and beaded signs that I’m gonna take down to the beach and hustle cause my funds aren’t where they should be. I did go out Friday night with Michigan Courtney, met her a couple weeks ago at a bonfire through Meetup and just love her, she too is an Aries and resonates with spirituality which makes her my people. We had a blast making the best out of two lame parties and ended up at the local bar having way more than I planned and indeed felt it for the rest of the weekend.

 

Anyway, I woke up hearing exactly what I needed to hear to pull me from the woe is me trenches and get my butt back in gear. I just get impatient and while I may be telling myself I’m ready for the next level of phenomenalness, my angels are not. I’m telling you those angels of ours know EVERYTHING and while I think I know best I’m always proven otherwise cause clearly they’re the ones who do. The messages I got when I woke up were crystal clear so here I am.

 

Finding hidden blessings in unfortunate circumstances and sharing my story were the two that stick out the most but I’ve gotta admit I’m a little tired of finding those hidden blessings cause the unfortunate circumstances are getting a little old. And if people really knew what those circumstances entailed maybe just maybe they might try and understand just how fucking hard this spiritual journey is. But then I have to gently remind myself that yes they are all for purpose because with every unfortunate circumstance I truly do learn and grow and become one step closer to mastering fuckin’ phenomenally. But in order to learn and grow to get there I ultimately have to sacrifice something in its place and that something usually comes at a high and painful price.

I kid you not, I just got an email notification at 4:20 (angel number too btw) and it’s an important message from an Archangel. I click on it of course and it reads…
“You Should Know That Some Things Will Just Take Time, No Matter How Great Your Effort and Talent Are”
Followed by these categories…
Learn to preserve your energy
Avoid being over-involved
Learn and master yourself
I mean I can’t make this shit up and if I don’t take that as the biggest sign ever then I need a swift kick in the ass. Oh wait, my Angles just gave me one. Thanks mom LOL.