I suppose discipline and self-control run parallel, and next to change and transformation they’re the two words I’m focusing on right now. It’s no big surprise I don’t particularly care for either one considering I’m a big fan of doing whatever the bleep I want, that kicked in fresh outta high school. Like most teenagers though I just didn’t like being told what I can and can’t do.
Little did I know that would be a lifetime theme for me, apparently sovereignty is a big deal to both Aries and Leo and considering that’s my sun and rising astrologically speaking I guess it just makes sense. I’ve always marched to the beat of my own drum and getting kicked out at the age of 19 shouldn’t be a shock to anyone who knows me well enough. Rules, I’ve never liked ‘ em.
I have to give myself credit before I call myself out, I’m pretty good when it comes to discipline. I have given up drinking and smoking and I stopped doing drugs for even longer. I am now a vegetarian as I don’t eat the homies, no heart beats and no eyeballs. I even refrain from sexual everything.
Truth be told and TMI I don’t even stimulate myself sexually anymore. It’s not forever it’s just for now and I don’t even know exactly why. I want to say I received some signs but besides that it just feels like the right thing to do. I have a sneaky suspicion it might have something to do with a kundalini awakening.
What I do find challenging these days is saying no to food and chocolate. I’m a big foody, I mean who isn’t but for me I’ve noticed I eat a little more than I should. I would go so far as to even say it’s my last (switched) addiction. Food is what I turn to when I’m frustrated, bored or feeling out of sorts.
Now in all fairness I eat healthy, for the most part, or until you put chocolate in front of me. However, I need to be at ease with where I’m at, so much so I don’t need anything to lean on. I need to be okay with being okay, or better yet I need to be okay when I’m not okay. It’s mind over matter and I’m working on it. I’m actually on day two of fasting.
I can’t say I didn’t see it coming because I did, subtle things have caught my attention for the past few weeks, maybe even a month or so. I also had the (wrong) attitude of well I’ll just skate it off and is a big reason why I skate for two hours everyday, or at least have been for the past two months. Until now.
Call it coincidence, call it what you will but for me it’s no coincidence my recalibration cold has me down for the count, it’s been nine days now with symptoms like fatigue so no exercise, just me at home and in bed. Which has also half way through taken away my sense of smell right along with taste. I did ask for help from my team with this whole eating too much scenario and I believe that’s exactly what they’re doing. And guess what, it’s working.
I recently gave some advice to a friend of mine that I need to heed myself. I told her to look at refraining with a different perspective, she needs to honor her body by not putting poison in it because that’s exactly what alcohol is. I say it with no judgements of course because I shoveled that stuff down my throat for decades.
At the end of the day I need to practice what I preach because when I’m eating cookies, or pancakes, or even too much food healthy or not, I too need to honor my body and only eat when I have to. I get it and it will take some time and getting used to but I’m also aware I can’t move forward until I nail it by fine tuning my discipline and self-control through conscious participation.
Trust your journey, trust the way your life unfolds, and trust that you are where you need to be at the present moment. “I AM PROTECTED”
My little angel message this morning was 444. I’ve also heard them described as pay attention numbers, either way 444 is my go-to number and the one I probably see the most, next to 111, 222 and 333. Haha I see them all so who am I kidding, they’re such a big part of my life.
I ran errands yesterday and saw 777 and 444 three times. I was sitting at a light and saw 1221 on the house the left, 133 on the license plate in front of me and 222 on the house to the right. True story, angel numbers are everywhere all the time. I am highly protected, we all are to some extent but I think I’m a little more than most for reasons currently unbeknownst to me but with time it will reveal itself.
I had a customer tell me last weekend that coincidences are Gods way of staying anonymous, I like that.
Love and Light