I know exactly what’s going on with me right now so at least I’m not lost, right? I have to keep reminding myself that 2025 is a 9 year so there’s gonna be a lot of endings and new beginnings not just for me but for a lot of people, if not humanity as a whole. It’s a big fat lesson in choosing happy when it comes to where I’m at, what I’m doing and how I feel.
But Francis (as my brother would say), just like everything else it’s so much easier said than done. I have to choose to wake up every day with the same happy-go-lucky attitude I had these past few months when I didn’t have to go to work and was free to do whatever I pleased. It’s all part of the process of mastery. I can’t be a magician or high priestess if I can’t master myself. Although one mans magic is another’s otherworldly technology. One mans magic is another’s engineering.
I’m dancing a little with my ego and my pride, the lovely shadows aspects of ’em anyway that never go away, they just need to be tamed and put in check. I get it, I just don’t like it and it’s exactly why I have to go through it, to train my brain to think differently which almost feels like a never ending process.
It’s a huge lesson in being okay no matter what the outcome is. It’s being the calm in the chaos and demonstrating that light in the darkness, or choosing to shine even when I may be feeling deflated momentarily. It’s not like I don’t know and I don’t know how, but I’ll admit, I’m being a little bratty pants. I have been anyway, I’m just about over it though and ready to move forward.
I know going back to work on the pier again gives me the opportunity to do it from the lens of working on my mastery attributes, fine tuning ’em anyway. 
I realize I’m not quite ascended master status so it just makes sense that that’s what’s happening. It’s funny because Spirit woke me up yesterday morning at 3:33 to remind of just that. It was pretty cool and definitely what I needed.
I woke up and checked the time and saw something that caught my eye on my notifications. It was an energy update for January 2025. I listened for the duration of twenty minutes or so, laughed a little because it’s exactly how I was feeling and had already shared, then fell back to sleep. My sleeping has been all hinky this past week as I’ve been almost confined to my bed with a soar throat, raspy voice and very little energy. Thanks self for boosting my immune system with a recalibration.
I can’t help but feel like that’s by design too. It’s given me the chance to do some studying and unpack the Bible some more and after a week of defining what true isolation is I’m ready to go back to work, not to mention skating which I haven’t done all week either. It’s all good though, like I said I’m just about ready to bounce back and release myself from this mental prison of my little pity party of one lol.
Invitation
We your guardian angels ask you to invite us into your heart. Talk to us at any time. Share with us your fears and concerns, as well as your joys and pleasures. There is no need to be formal, for we have known you since before the dawn of time. In fact, we know you better than you know yourself, and we love you just as you are.
It’s no coincidence I received this little angel message this morning as I’m creating this article. I’ve been kind of quiet all week and when I opened my eyeballs this morning I finally started talking to ’em again. I’ll admit I was feeling a little down however in all fairness I’m just trying to navigate this journey I call mine and it’s far from constant rainbows and butterflies and can be confusing not to mention frustrating.
I didn’t realize how much I was missed at work, you don’t know what you don’t know. I came across my resignation letter while I was organizing a few weeks ago and was actually brought to tears at all the nice things my boss had to say about me. I signed it in October when I quit but hadn’t read it until now. Now that I think about it, it’s one of the first signs I was gonna go back.
I also received a text from one of my coworkers around the same time which was sign number two. Come to find out they hadn’t even filled my position. I guess they tried but for whatever reason it never worked out so they’ve been working a skeleton crew hoping I’d come back. I guess it was written in the stars so now those signs are making sense too.
You know, these past few days if not longer I’ve been all ho-hum thinking I was reading my signs wrong or that maybe I was over thinking ’em when in reality they were all right there. I wasn’t reading ’em wrong, or yes I kind of was, I was needing to see them with a different perspective. I was hoping for something else but received what I needed instead. I got a little love drunk on signs and couldn’t see the forest through the trees.
It’s comical now that I reflect on it because they were two crystal clear signs that I received however completely dismissed because it wasn’t something I was wanting to do. We have to keep in mind that Spirit knows what’s best for us at the end of the day so when we choose to go with the flow we also choose to do things we don’t necessarily want to do, make those decisions (and sometimes even sacrifices) because it’s in our best interest. It’s what our soul needs to expand.
For other reasons I may not even see yet I am being called back to the pier (with a raise so yay there’s that) to do whatever it is I need to do and my job right now is to choose to do it with a smile on my face. Oh all right, in the words of my brother, he said that in a way I now find coming out of my mouth which is awesome. It’s proof to me that he truly is hanging out in my Merkaba, my light body, my soul.
Wow, you wanna know what’s cool about all this brother talk? Last night driving home I was thinking about my brother and how I don’t get any signs from him. I thought about asking for one but didn’t and here I am the following morning writing and he’s inadvertently come out twice now. I love it, thank you John Henry, thanks for reading my mind.
Speaking of thoughts and we’ll say visions as well because I’m still deciphering exactly what they are, I had another one at Knott’s on New Years Eve. 
I opted to go one last time as my pass expired on the 31st and spent most of my time watching families take pictures with Snoopy. I spent almost three hours laughing and smiling as I watched all walks of life want pics with this iconic dog, myself included.
I had just finished the chocolate chip cookie I treated myself to when the thought popped into my head that somebody was gonna buy me another one. I was like why would I even think that, I certainly don’t need another cookie. Maybe an hour later a woman offered me a free hot chocolate. It wasn’t a cookie but it falls under the same umbrella of chocolate or sugar. Coincidence? I dunno.
What I do know is today I choose happy.
Thank you for the birds singing outside my window this morning.
Carpe Diem.
Love and Light