Turns out my bright eyed and bushy tailed Tuesday night was a wee bit more than caffein. I had figured that much yesterday when I hadn’t been able to fall asleep for the duration of the night. It wasn’t until last night that I started to get concerned not to mention irritated as sleep is something I do not take for granted anymore and understand the importance of it for our body, mind and soul.
I laughed about it all through Tuesday night, even decluttered my house a little because it felt like the right thing to do, and because I was up and at ’em. Didn’t even mind doing homework at 4am. I’ll be honest it felt like I was back in the old days when pulling an all-nighter was common but when the sun came up over the horizon and I had things to do with no sleep I realized this was way more than an overly caffeinated cup of coffee.
Ascension symptoms isn’t something I take too seriously because I just don’t give it much thought but then last night and not having any sleep for thirty plus hours I started doing some research. By this point I was almost desperate because all I wanted was to lose the zingying sensations and give what felt like my bleeding eye balls a break. It felt like I was detoxing on a small scale and that’s something I vowed to never want to feel again on any level. But this time it didn’t come with a choice, who knew cosmic upgrades would feel like a detox.
I was still doing my best to laugh as I went about my day yesterday, joking that it has to be part of my mastery training. My buttons were pushed, my limits were tested and boundaries were definitely crossed and yet I still stayed cool as a cucumber. I even pat myself on the back because it was challenging with lack of sleep. My internal dialog is always on and I do find myself even more so these days thinking before I speak which is something I’ve learned through constant awareness.
Then there’s times where I say nothing at all because that’s the best course of action. Observing and listening to others when they don’t even know I’m within range has become a favorite past time. The way I see it it’s all part of the process and some day everything will make sense. I’m always trying to figure things out, I have somewhat of an insatiable appetite for understanding.
I have come a long way from the girl who needed external validation. It’s nice to receive it but I no longer require it. Instead of attention from others I now prefer reflection on my own. After researching if insomnia was an ascension system, which it is, my mind was given some peace when I figured out the solution was to simply surrender. I’m certainly no stranger to that so when I put my mind to it, I was finally able to fall asleep probably around midnight.
I’m gonna vote that spout of insomnia was Spirit’s way of gifting me an invisible upgrade, thank you. I’m tired today, it takes two days for sleep deprivation to even kick in but that’s okay I didn’t set myself up for anything I can’t handle. Definitely see a nap in my future. What’s two things you despised as a kid but love as an adult? Naps and spankings. Hahaha, or maybe that’s just me.
I was reminded that the insomnia is coming from a benevolent place and that it’s for the greater good of my growth and evolution. Proof that my body is changing thanks to the continuous fluctuation of my vibrations resulting in the elevations of my frequency. I’ve changed so much from who I used to be and I couldn’t be more proud of myself and amazed I truly did it all at the same time.
I don’t complain, I do not gossip and I believe whole heartedly that if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say it at all. And this is just the elementary stuff we should all be able to recognize. I’m emotionally intelligent not to mention available, my spiritual gifts are starting to bloom and I have all the patience in the world (most of the time). Jack FM asked the question, what’s more of a prison…Alcatraz or being emotionally unavailable? I was like oof, that speaks volumes, not to mention makes my heart ache a little for the latter. I know a handful of emotionally unavailable people and my brother was one of ’em.
It’s taken years of (intentional) practice but this is where I’m at and I actually love it when Spirit lets me know how I’m doing in the form of other people. I was standing in the restroom area at the Beach Life Music Festival waiting for Linda, it’s a very busy spot as you can imagine. Dave was across the way watching me watch other people when he says, “you’re just a fucking badass, you don’t take shit from nobody. And you’re cool, calm and collected. That’s just what you are.” I’m not gonna lie, it felt good to hear him say that. This is before he knew about my awakening and what my journey was all about.
My progress shows and even though I can’t see it sometimes, others do…
It just feels good to know that I’m making a difference, even if it’s on a small scale right now. Making a difference is why I’m here and if I can make someone’s day easier with a kind gesture and better with a hug and a smile then that’s what I do. And I love doing it.
Only Spirit knows exactly why and how much I’ve grown, especially in these past two days alone. Even though I can’t see it with my physical eyes, my body and my intuition are telling me things are shifting. I will continue to take stock in my endeavors striving to always be the best human possible. I don’t have to understand everything, I just have to know everything is always working out for me as I continue to flourish into a galactic ambassador undetected.
Love and Light