Initially I wasn’t going to write about this but after what I saw this morning it has become clear I should. I know this is going to sound silly at first so bear with me there is a point and even I didn’t see it until today. Last week a lady came into yoga and sat down directly in front of me. Now mind you I like to sit in the second row in front of the mirror because I’m still a beginner so I like to check my positions every now and again. If you ask me it’s just common curtesy or I’d even go so far as to say it’s yoga etiquette to be mindful of where you’re setting up as there are mirrors and people generally stagger.
I asked her in the nicest way possible because that’s just me now if she wouldn’t mind scooching just a tad to the left. Well you’d think I asked her to pick up her mat and go to the back of the room because I think her exact words were are you kidding me right now, if you want to look in the mirror why don’t you just come up front. I was taken aback, I thought she was joking at first till I realized she wasn’t. All I could do was smile and laugh a little which made her even more irritated but I didn’t know how else to respond, it caught me completely off guard.
Here we are in yoga where we’re all supposed to be kind for the most part as we’re all seeking that zenness that yoga is supposed to bring. What went through my head shortly thereafter was maybe she’s a new soul or maybe she’s having a bad morning because you really don’t know what’s going on in other peoples lives, I was searching for anything to make me feel better because I am an empath to the core who is more on the sensitive side and it kind of hurt my feelings a little. I may be tough but I’m a tough softy and that’s by design.
I let it go but I have to admit it was hard and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t bother me over the weekend. I don’t know why our minds like to torcher us for lack of a better word by repeating scenarios in our head. It’s so not necessary and actually can be quite damaging. But this is where mastering my emotions comes in and I’ve come pretty far with it so yes it was bothering me on top of bothering me. You can’t let other peoples reactions get to you, you can’t take things personal and this was a lesson in just that.
It was also a lesson in water off a duck’s back, let it go. Every time it entered my mind I had to quickly dismiss it. It even made me question myself for a second or two, am I in the wrong, am I being vain for wanting to look in the mirror when I’m doing yoga? The answer to that is no of course but clearly mastering my emotions is still in the works right along with not letting other people’s reactions or triggers bother me. Let’s be real though, I’ll be working on both of those for a while so I have to go easy on myself, that’s when compassion for myself comes in.
Today it became clear when I saw something transpire and it finally gave me the peace of mind I needed. Yoga, same time same place and same people. Right before class was about to start another lady came in and started setting up right next to the lady who snapped at me and I was pleasantly surprised to see that she asked her if she wanted her to move over a little.
I was like yay everything that went down last week made a difference. Was it a lesson for her too and had she recognized it? It gave me so much hope to think that maybe she too is on a journey to better herself and reflecting on what went down with me made her want to be a little nicer.
All for something, all for purpose and all for the better. Restored some faith in humanity yes it did. I have faith we’ll get there but we have a long way to go and the ride is about to get real bumpy. I don’t know how long it will take for me to reach mastery but I do know it takes a lot of lessons and as a life long learner I best get used to it.
A little angel message from Truth Well Told Tarot this morning, thanks Andrea.
Commitment…angel wisdom reminds you that when you aim for a vision without doubt or deviation it must succeed. Your guidance is to persevere toward your vision. Let every word, thought and direction be directed toward your desired outcome. Nothing is more powerful than focused energy and the angels will see the pure light of your commitment whether it is to a relationship, a piece of work, a journey or anything else in your life. Remember to ask them for help and know when you dedicate your intention for the highest good, they will support you.
I just want to be the best version of me possible, let everyone know how I did it so they too can raise their vibrations and consciousness for the highest good of humanity. I will help change what we call human nature so we can evolve as a species and live in peace. And I wish to fall in love again. And so it is.
