I listened to one of the best analogies I’ve heard in a while and it came from Panache Desai, I’m not sure what to call this guy other than a beautiful soul who knows his stuff. He’s wise, he’s funny, and from the looks of the statue has Buddhist beliefs. I’ve been giving some thought to manifesting lately and I can’t help but not be fond of the word altogether. There’s too many rules and too many ways not to mention rituals that just aren’t my thing.
I only speak for myself of course because everybody is different. This video magically showed up in my feed as I’m swimming in my pool of ambiguous wonder knowing I’m in the middle of a trust fall, so to act on any of my egoic impulses would be saying to the universe that I don’t trust. It’s a double edged sword really because here I am longing for that safety net that came with a paycheck every two weeks but at the same time enjoying the freedom of not reporting to a job that was no longer in alignment.
I can officially say I am an entrepreneur who owns her own business understanding it’s in its infancy stage and I didn’t get here by my own accord. Not completely anyway. I 100% have been guided thus far, I’m just feeling the squeeze as I like to call it and it sure is uncomfortable. I also understand that everything we go through is in preparation for something else and when I look back in just these past five years alone I have no doubt that there is something so much bigger than me leading the way.
So when I have days like today where one minute I’m coolio and the next my mind is racing, Spirit lovingly sends me some advice. This time it came in the form of this wonderful human to remind me all is well, let go of the worry, let go of control and just simply be. Which also had me thinking, which ironically enough is something I’m trying not to do but not necessarily. The thinking I need to be refraining from is the overthinking of what’s next and how am I gonna get there.
It’s like two fleas on the back of an elephant taking credit for the direction the elephant is going. Kevin! (One of the fleas is called Kevin) look we made it move, look how powerful we are!
Two fleas on the back of an elephant side jabbing one another saying look, we manifested that. It’s all the post-it notes and vision boards, look we did it, we made the elephant move, we’re so powerful.
And all the while they’re just going in the direction that the elephant is moving.
What’s even funnier than the analogy itself is the fact that I have post-it notes and I guess you could say it’s a vision board. He went on to say all this manifestation malarky is just the ego taking credit for what the soul is already doing. We keep taking credit for things that have nothing to do with us, and we certainly don’t need to have all of the answers. We just need to pay attention to whatever it is that’s happening and even though I may not understand it in the moment, eventually it’ll all make sense because it always does.
To live your life soulfully is to live your life led by the truth of who you are which is this infinite source of abundance that dwells inside us called our Soul, called God, called Prime Creator, fill in the blank. I think about all the moves I’ve made in the last five years alone…five times in five years. From Colorado to Costa Rica, to Chino Hills, to Huntington Beach, to my car, to where I am now, and I’ve been in this spot for three years. I can’t take credit for any of these moves. Not one.
Sure I did it physically but none of them were my idea. Okay Costa Rica, but that too was led by a higher intelligence. Everything was set in place to take me from place to place to get me to where I needed to be to start my journey and then continue it in the safest way possible. It’s incredible now that I’m really reflecting on it. I’ve been in this constant current, this loving stream that carries me through everything. Sometimes it’s easy and sometimes it’s not. Regardless, nothing is done to me, everything is done for me. And my metanoia, dark night, or whatever you want to call it that I’m in right this second is no different.
When I ponder over all the synchronicities that have occurred to carry me from here to there all I can do is say thank you. At the end of the day I’m happy being that little flea on the back of the elephant, letting it take me where we’re supposed to be going. I’m cool taking my hand off the wheel and letting my soul do what it’s gotta do to teach me this or teach me that, I just need to be reminded every now and again. And right now it’s teaching me something fierce about trust without letting it squeeze me too hard, which is why I’m focusing on where my thoughts are taking me.
The soul comes to Earth with an agenda already set in place, and it will stop at nothing to do whatever it has to do to grow, and as I’ve mentioned before, a lot of that growth comes with discomfortable. I’m on this rollercoaster I’m hoping ends soon however understand I’m the one who signed up for it. Right now I must’ve wanted to feel what’s it’s like one more time to live without a safety net. I did it in my car and I’m doing it now, and that’s living with blind faith.
This is a dense dimension and being human takes effort and commitment, not to mention patience and adaptability. And forgiveness and compassion. And flexibility and generosity. And authenticity and integrity. And the list goes on. Most of all I have to trust that this is all leading somewhere special and I have to be okay with feeling confident this morning and now moving through a little confusion and if I’m being honest, there’s some underlying fear that I have to confront.
Awakenings are hard work which is why not everybody will do it. The only way out is through and I know I will come out of this all the wiser and all the stronger. But for now I say thank you for the ride on the elephant and remind myself to float down this divinely guided stream (on my unicorn floaty) taking comfort in knowing that tomorrow is a new day. With every new day there is a new beginning.
Love and Light