So this is pretty effing cool. This actually happened yesterday morning but who cares I’m here now. I’ve never been a big fan of meditation for a couple reasons and the first one is I always feel like I’m doing it wrong. According to pretty much everybody there is no wrong way to meditate but that doesn’t mean I still don’t feel like I’m not doing it right. I’m thinking it’s probably because I’m the kind of person who wants immediate results and with meditation that’s just not how it works. I guess journaling is a form of meditation too so in that case I do it all the time as I’m a journaling FOOL. I do it quite a bit, especially when my calligraphy pens are flowing, which right this second they are not and has my panties in a bind because I really wanna journal in cursive with my calligraphy pens. ANYWAY, apparently I’m not meant to for whatever reason, my votes another stinkin’ lesson in patience because those are never frickin’ ending but so be it.
Another reason I don’t like meditating is because without fail, every single time, I cry. Don’t know why I just do. Not that that’s a bad thing unless I just put on mascara which is usually the case. Anyway yesterday was no different except that this time it was almost uncontrollable and my body was even shaking a little. About halfway through it to the inevitable part of where I was actually connecting with my spirit guide who I had already chosen to be my mother. That’s who I wanted to see anyway, naturally. And I swear to God what happened next has never happened before and I’m still in awe over the experience.
When we actually “connected” and I’m visualizing all this in my head as I’m listening to the guided meditation my body went from trembling and crying to complete and absolute stillness. I felt this warmth all over, in every inch of my body, like every cell and I stopped crying. I stopped shaking too and I was just in complete peace. It was nothing less than miraculous. It was so awesome. And for the first time out of any time I’ve ever meditated, I didn’t want it to end. I remember saying out loud when she did end it, I said, “no I don’t want to.” And I didn’t. I stayed there for probably another ten to fifteen minutes. Good stuff.