It wasn’t too far into our adventure I realized that while this trip was for me it certainly wasn’t about me. I went with these preconceived notions of what it was going to be like and by the third day something had to give. I didn’t understand why I was starting to feel a certain way and yet was understandably bothered by it all, so much so I had to ask for help in understanding which then changed my perspective. When you change your perspective, you change your attitude which ultimately changes the dynamics and then of course changes everything.
My clarity came like a flood of information on a walk to find the laundry facilities in Albuquerque New Mexico when we opted to get a hotel for the night, one of the nicest rooms I’ve ever stayed in for the record, thank you Hilton. I’ll be honest I wasn’t having has much fun as I thought I was going to have, by the third day I hadn’t done any yoga, no walks in nature nor had I done any blogging, or even journaled for that matter. I went thinking I had to blog my experiences as I went and Spirit was like pfft no you don’t, you’ll have plenty of time to do that when you get back.
This trip was more about helping my bestie and less about me in general. I knew my friend was needy (her words) but I didn’t realize just how much (medical) attention or help she really needed. She even brought it to my attention that whenever we’ve hung out, for the most part with overnighters, she’s been at home in her element with everything she needs at her fingertips. This was the first time I was to be traveling with her and she packs quite a bit and it wasn’t long before I realized it was all about her needs and how I could be of service to them.
I’m a nurturer by nature, special needs and CNA work comes natural to me so as soon as the circumstances were brought clearly to my attention everything changed. It was when I realized exactly why I was here and what it was all about, it was then that I realized this trip was all about practicing the art of selflessness. With my new found perspective I had to then remind myself that fun is what you make it and by changing my attitude I was able to shift the dynamics while putting a smile on my face and spring back in my step.
Woke up the next day feeling refreshed and ready to go, every day is a new day for a fresh start and day four was no exception. After racing the first three days for Albuquerque for the balloon fiesta that we missed anyway we were now heading for Arizona to peep out the Grand Canyon. In retrospect and now having been home for a few days I’m realizing more and more and now that I look back with some reflection I’m able to see it was about letting go of expectations and then getting out of my own way in order for allowance and being of service with divine flow.
It was also on the third day that I realized just how important communication really is as we had a (tearful) conversation about everything. After the fact I went so far as to say to myself that if I didn’t know any better I’d say this was a good practice run for my next and final relationship. Communication is an important ingredient to the success of any relationship, especially a romantic one. I’ve been living the bachelor life for quite some time and if I didn’t know any better again I’d say this was a wee bit of practice for what’s to come. Honesty, integrity and transparency are important attributes to have especially when it comes to making a relationship work, friendship or otherwise.
I must say though, while yes we are all connected on a soul level, Amber and I are oddly connected what would appear to be a little more than most. Throughout the two weeks we spent traveling we couldn’t help but notice we said the same things at the same time, the passcodes to our phones are even the same number. Wait what? Yeah that kind of blew my mind, however it did make using each others phones much easier. I’m well aware telepathy is going to be a big part of communication in the New Earth and I can’t help but feel like this was just a taste of it.
What a wonderful trip overall, like everything else in my life these days it was a rollercoaster but it wasn’t a Six Flags rollercoaster, it was more like a Camp Snoopy so yay there’s that. I’m super grateful for the opportunity to see all the wonderful places of my beautiful country I had yet to see and look forward to what’s next so stay tuned because in the next coming week I have a lot to write about. Thankful even more so for the chance to learn and grow and this time right along side one of my favorite people.
My life just keeps getting better and better and I can’t wait to see what wonderful surprises Spirit has for me next. With Pluto finally moving out of Capricorn and into Aquarius for good around the 19th of November I’m happy to report many of us, I think it was cardinal signs who felt this the most, plus Sagittarians. Since 2008 when Pluto moved into Capricorn it has been a long and tumultuous road for many of us and finally next month brings about a breath of fresh air as Pluto will now station into Aquarius where it will remain until 2040. I don’t know about you but that’s a heavens yes for me.
Love and Light