I’ve come to the realization that I’m not going anywhere right this second. I’ve been so caught up in the fantasy if you will of a possible relocation when really at the end of the day I’m exactly where I need to be. Everything happens for a reason, everything is for growth in some way and that’s all spiritual path 101 and I think I lost sight of that along with many other aspects of where my journey is taking me as well. I’m a master in the making and I consider that to be pretty special.
I’ve spent the last few weeks waiting to be rescued in some sort of way when in reality, you know the one I create, I needed to rescue myself. There’s more than one layer to creating your own reality that’s for sure. I’ve spent the last few days in absolute turmoil on every level and with just about everything, I cried off and on like a little baby for three days feeling so alone not to mention lost.
I shouldn’t poo poo on crying though so I take it back when I say cried like a little baby, erase erase erase. Crying is healthy not to mention important and necessary in order to release old energy enabling you to move forward stronger and all the wiser. It’s a fantastic release so please by all means cry when you need to.
Gotta love those dark nights of the soul that force you see things differently. I thought I had it figured out when I’m not even supposed to have it figured out. It’s okay to plan to some extent but there’s some serious emphasis on staying in the present moment and that’s by design. There’s also a lot of talk about detaching from outcomes and this deep dive allowed me to see just that.
A lesson in over-thinking, letting go, and not caring so to speak. I was called to care however it was a lesson in not being bothered by outcomes and learning to fully embrace where I’m at and what I’m doing. This isn’t my final destination however it is where I’m currently at on my path and I have a whole new found respect for the appreciation and knowing that the journey is the destination.
I live where people want to vacation, I have a job (again) that a lot of people would love to have and I’m happy to report I have a new found respect along with so much more gratitude for both. Everything is at my fingertips and let’s not forget I’m able to skate every morning right along side the beautiful ocean, it doesn’t get much better than that right now.
One of the biggest lessons I learned from all this is I’m no longer in a hurry to be somewhere else. I don’t even need to know where I’m going anymore, I have learned to completely let go of any and all expectations on where I think I need to be. I know who I am and what I am and I’m okay with my path unfolding exactly how it supposed to, even if that means it moves like molasses. That may sound like a contradiction because I know I’ve been fast-tracking yet it also feels like it’s taking forever which is exactly why I’m reminded that it’s more about how you’re getting there. It’s all about the process, the process of transformation.
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be until I’m not and finally having the epiphany to see things through a different lens that allows me to recognize this is definitely worth its weight in gold. And for all of this I say thank you.
I just received a text from my love bug brother Jun which 
couldn’t be more appropriate for how I feel right now, which is rejuvenated, inspired, loved and ready to make some more changes by forming new habits. I am an angel after all, an earth angel, an agent of change, a bringer of good news who embodies the essence of love.
I’m the whole package. I don’t recommend chips so I’m gonna go with I’m the whole package and a bag of nuts which haha is pretty hysterical in so many ways. I’m feeling very motivated and ready to continue making change, that’s just what I do. I change perspectives, I transmute energy and hopefully I’m changing lives.
Love and Light