I have to admit I was a wee bit apprehensive to share my journal in my last post, I thought maybe it was a little too much. There’s fine lines between classy, sassy and brassy and I’m always leery now not to cross any of them. I try to always put my best foot forward and with my ascendant (rising) sign being Leo, that’s the most loving version of me possible. But those who know me well enough know I’m also a loving sarcastic smart aleck who thinks a dirty mind is a terrible thing to waste.
My last article was on my mind after the fact, more so than necessary because it wasn’t long before Spirit sent a message my way letting me know all was well and it’s okay, if not better, that I let the real me shine. As I am maturing I’m doing my best to walk the middle path knowing there’s a time and place for everything but it’s also time I’m unapologetically me. I picked up my phone to check something when this crossed my path…
I was like wow thanks team, I guess that’s my que to stop overthinking it and carry on. Snapped me right out of it like Cesar Millan’s legendary “Tsch!” dog poke. That’s literally what went through my mind when I read it, it had me laughing pretty hard. You’ve gotta understand, I laugh at myself all day long because I have to and because I can. Whenever I need a little course correction or reminder, my team certainly doesn’t hesitate to let me know all is well with my soul and it’s okay to be authentically me.
My ships are coming. I don’t know what time the train arrives but I have a ticket. I’m about to be compensated for hard work well done. I had someone say to me recently that after all I’ve been through and all the obstacles I’ve had to overcome, they said the universe owes me. Their words but then I responded without missing a beat, you know what, you’re right.
When I reflect on how far I’ve come, even in these past six months alone, I have to pat myself on the back. I truly have come so far in such little time, each step guided to the next through faith and a desire to be better. I took this picture this morning, not out of arrogance (which is a shadow aspect for both Aries and Leo so I have to be extra mindful) but with humble confidence. I bought this bikini two years ago (from Walmart for five bucks because I’m a bargain shopper) and this summer I can finally wear it and feel good about myself, because I did it the right way.
I’ll tell you what the problem was, I didn’t have much discipline and I wanted to eat whatever I wanted which is why I chose to partake in legal and illegal substances, literally so I could eat whatever I wanted. This journey (so far) has taken me out of my service to self and plunged me into a life where I now take a healthy pride in taking care of myself, not to mention doing whatever it takes for the sake of humanity.
Was it easy, not always, but I did it anyway. And it’s something I will have to focus on for the rest of this lifetime. I’m sure it will continue to get easier with time because everything always does. I’m telling ya though, part of the reason I hurt my wrist was a tower moment to get me to change my eating habits, and I did. The other part was to slow me down for the intake of energetic light codes as the biology of my cells is changing. My roller skating accident was no accident. Just like coincidences, there’s no such thing. I’ve even heard someone say getting hit by a car is a way to clear karma and I was like damn, I’ve been hit twice. I guess I was clearing some (intentional) karma.
I’ve been battling weight issues my whole life and I’m finally in a place where I don’t have to stress over it anymore. This feeling of contentment happened what feels like overnight and all I have to do is live a healthy lifestyle with diet and exercise. And commitment because the word discipline has never been my favorite. I’m not gonna lie, I still have some toning to do but overall I feel great. This feather literally rolled right into my lap today while Sia’s song “I’ve Got Stamina” was playing. It was pretty rad.
There’s so much I incarnated to accomplish and my personal sovereignty and empowerment are just the tip of the iceberg. I can now continue to move forward doing my best not to overthink, overreact or overcompensate because all is well with my soul and my team has my back. I no longer chase, I attract. I love myself, I trust myself and I know thyself.
I came here to break generational curses and heal trauma (and karma) that was never mine to carry. I came here to lead others through darkness with my divine fire. Every scar I carry is sacred. Every addiction was intentional and every fall made me stronger. Every rejection was divine redirection and every delay was divine protection. Every time I’ve cried, been betrayed and then forgiven, I’ve healed silent suffering for the past, present and future. I healed generations by breaking bad habits, patterns and behaviors and becoming the person I was always meant to be.
Miracles are imminent and I am open to receive.
I swear on everything sacred I got up from my plate and returned to this heart. And don’t make fun of my plateware either, I’ve been living the bachelor life for quite some time now. Mmmm eggs and spinach, my favorite.
Love and Light