Regardless of who you are and what you’ve accomplished in life, nobody is immune to the human experiences we go through. We grow through what we go through and being human is the whole point of this lifetime, of every waking moment. Fame, fortune and success were never the point, they’re the outcomes of our actions while the whole point is to experience life in human form…the good, the bad and the ugly.
Since I’m in the habit of airing my dirty laundry with all that is humbling me right this second, let’s continue the jaunt with admitting that not only am I taking out the trash (with my thoughts) but I’m also cleaning out my junk drawer, which seems to be a never ending process. It would be nice to not even have a junk drawer anymore, after putting in all the work, but let’s be real and admit that that’s probably never going to happen.
With Mercury moving retrograde in Pisces, it invites us to pull our attentions inwards and stir up unresolved emotions, memories and perhaps even some unfinished conversations, especially with yourself. The eclipses like to shine a spotlight on everything that needs attention, especially for someone such as myself who is at the threshold of not just at a five year milestone, but metamorphosis as well.
It has become apparent that dates and walnuts have to come off my menu for the time-being, it’s proving itself to be painfully obvious my moderation has gone completely out the window. I’m sure this’ll make Saturn happy at the end of the day considering it’s the planet of discipline, and rewards for exactly that. I’ll have them back on the menu (after the last round I just purchased lol) when I’ve proven to myself I’m not using them as a coping mechanism.
Spending so much time at home these days can have me feeling frustrated, annoyed and less than thrilled and truth be told I have a tendency to turn to food for comfort. Chewing gum falls under this same coping category. I’m well aware I need to be not just mastering my mind and my thoughts but literally sitting in stillness and being comfortable and harmonious with all of it. Call it meditating, call it what you want, it’s another form of discipline I’m being forced to face (again). I ran a few errands today knowing all too well these next few days, weeks even, need to spent doing the very things I least like doing.
I can’t say I didn’t know it was coming because it’s only a matter of time before Spirit steps in to insure I’m moving along at the designated pace necessary. Call it coincidence, call it a potential fake ailment, I call it unfortunate. My back has decided to make sure I’m spending most of my time at home and in a stillness position. I don’t even know. What I do know is that I made a doctors appointment last night after sharing a few choice words with all things invisible, then woke up at 4 o’clock this morning only to open up my phone, cancel the appointment and go back to sleep. This too shall pass.
I thinks it’s funny, kind of, but this is my relationship not just with my galactic family but with all the versions that exist of me hanging out in the ethers. It’s all the other versions of me more than anything and who knows exactly what number that may be. The communication is non-stop though and it had me laughing at the grocery store. Naturally I went to stock up for my next hibernation period because I don’t plan on leaving the house for a few.
I was standing in line when I saw a man wearing a t-shirt that was meant for my eyes. I couldn’t snap a picture in time so my drawing will have to do. What a random t-shirt though, one might think. Not in my world, and let’s not forget that smiley faces are a personal sign for me from Spirit. When I was first placed in my car smiley faces showed up everywhere and ever since then whenever I see one, I pay extra attention or simply smile knowing I’m loved and taken care of.
This guy with this t-shirt (reminding me to be still) floated right into view and kept going, it was just long enough for me to catch the drift. It was funny because that’s exactly why I was there. Stocking up for my stillness. If there’s one thing for sure, it’s that I have a playful relationship with Spirit and thoroughly enjoy everything it has to offer. Make no mistake, it’s available to everybody.
I saw another sign meant for me on the back of what looked like a moving van. I was making a left hand turn which also inhibited me from taking a picture but my eyes were drawn to it in the exact moment needed so I could see it. It’s amazing how that happens and then it was just one of those knowings that hit me at the core. This one has some deeper hidden meaning to it, I just don’t exactly what it is yet. Like everything else, time will tell. In the meantime I’ll be spending my days appeasing Saturn sitting in stillness and not eating dates and walnuts.
Be open to a career with endless possibilities.