Regardless of who you are and what you’ve accomplished in life, nobody is immune to the human experiences we go through. We grow through what we go through and being human is the whole point of this lifetime, every waking moment. It’s our experiences that shape who we become and what we base our belief systems on. Fame, fortune and success are the outcomes of our actions but the whole point is to experience life in human form…the good, the bad and the ugly.
Since I’m in the habit of airing my dirty laundry with all that’s humbling me right this second, let’s continue the jaunt with admitting that not only am I taking out the trash (with my thoughts) but I’m also cleaning out my junk drawer (of bad habits), which seems to be a never ending process. It would be nice to not even have a junk drawer anymore, after putting in so much work, but let’s be real, there’s always gonna be a little junk in my drawer, it wouldn’t be a human experience without it.
With Mercury moving retrograde in Pisces, it invites us to pull our attentions inwards and stir up unresolved emotions, memories and perhaps even some unfinished conversations, especially with yourself. The eclipses like to shine a spotlight on everything that needs attention, especially for someone such as myself who is at the threshold of not just at a five year milestone, but metamorphosis as well.
It has become apparent that dates and walnuts have to come off my menu for the time-being, it’s proving itself to be painfully obvious my moderation has gone completely out the window. I’m sure this’ll make Saturn happy at the end of the day considering it is the planet of discipline, and rewards individuals for exactly that. I’ll have them back on the menu (after the last round I just purchased lol) when I’ve proven to myself I’m not using them as a coping mechanism.
Spending so much time at home these days can have me feeling frustrated, annoyed and less than thrilled and truth be told I have a tendency to turn to food for comfort. Chewing gum falls under this same coping category. I’m well aware I need to be not just mastering my mind and my thoughts but literally sitting in stillness and being comfortable and harmonious with all of it. Call it meditating, call it what you want, it’s another form of discipline I’m being asked to face (again). Sometimes I just need a push to overcome my stubbornness.
I can’t say I didn’t know it was coming because it’s only a matter of time before the universe steps in to insure that push happens, moving me along at the designated pace necessary. For whatever reason my back has decided to make sure I’m spending most of my time at home and in a stillness position. Perhaps another challenge for me to overcome, I don’t even know. What I do know is that I made a doctors appointment last night after sharing a few choice words with all things invisible, then woke up at 4 o’clock this morning only to open my phone, cancel the appointment and go right back to sleep.
Interestingly enough I had zero dreams last night and I’ve mentioned it before that I have this theory that when I don’t dream at all, zero recollection, I believe that I go Home or go sit at some round table with my team so we can discuss strategy or whatever needs to be said so I’ll feel better in the morning moving forward. Our souls naturally leave our body and travel the astral plane every time we sleep but perhaps this time I woke up at 4am knowing this too shall pass.
I thinks it’s funny, most of the time, my relationship not just with my galactic family but with all the versions that exist of me hanging out in the ethers. It’s all the other versions of me more than anything and who knows exactly what number that may be. The communication is non-stop though and it had me laughing at the HB Farmers Market. I went to stock up for my next gestation period because I don’t plan on leaving the house for a few.
I was standing in line when I saw a man wearing a t-shirt that was meant for my eyes. I couldn’t snap a picture in time so my drawing will have to do. What a random t-shirt though, one might think. Not in my world, and let’s not forget that smiley faces are a personal sign for me from Spirit. When I was first placed in my car smiley faces showed up everywhere and ever since then whenever I see one, I pay extra attention or simply smile knowing I’m loved and taken care of.
This guy with this t-shirt (reminding me to be still) floated right into view and then right back out, it was just long enough for me to catch the drift. It was funny because that’s exactly why I was there. Stocking up for my stillness. If there’s one thing for sure, it’s that I have a playful relationship with Spirit and thoroughly enjoy everything it has to offer.
I’ll never forget the time, long story short, I went to purchase eggs knowing all too well I was supposed to be fasting. On my way in I said out loud to my team, I’m pretty sure this has something to do with control but I’m doing it anyway. I didn’t need the eggs right then but was having a hard time relinquishing control. I kid you not, I left the parking lot and pulled right up behind a car with the license plate that read BBRATT. I laughed so hard. I’ve been called a lot of names in my day but my mother was the only person to ever (lovingly) call me a brat, and rightfully so.
I saw another sign meant for me today on the back of what looked like a moving van. I was making a left which inhibited me from taking a picture but my eyes were drawn to it in the exact moment so I could see it. It’s amazing how that happens and then it was just one of those knowings that hit me at the core. This one has some deeper hidden meaning to it, I just don’t know exactly what yet. Like everything else, time will tell. Meanwhile I’ll be spending my days appeasing Saturn sitting in stillness and not eating dates and walnuts.
Be open to a career with endless possibilities.
Ironically enough, here I am about to turn 51 and most people my age are starting to think about retirement after a lifetime with a career and I’m just getting started. My mom did like to say I was a late bloomer but I guess when you’re doing something you love you never work a day in your life. Besides, a little birdie told me I’m going to live a lot longer than the average. I came here to do something specific to assist with the evolution of human consciousness.
Melissa Parker, Fearless Aries, I am the brand.
Love and Light