It’s so difficult to see the silver linings when you’re in the heart of learning lessons, and doing the work as the saying goes. It’s funny, I went to get some pain relief from the store and when I retuned someone had taken my parking spot. It’s not my parking spot but it was the spot that was conveniently located in front of the house. My initial reaction took even me by surprise when I dropped the ‘mother effer’ of all bad words.
I was like whoa, where did that come from as I laughed it off. But it’s when you allow that emotion to come through and then catch yourself, that’s when you’re actually doing the work. That’s the sweet spot that nobody talks about because most are completely unaware. Don’t ever be too hard on yourself for feeling your feelings because those are the moments that mean the most and are just proof you’re making progress.
You do have to catch yourself though and then do the transmuting by not getting stuck in the suck. Emotions are energy in motion and (they say) really shouldn’t last any longer than 90 seconds. Anything longer than that is just you repeating the story in your head which is what I call a form of unnecessary roughness. I’m not talking about grief or say a deep betrayal, those kinds of hard lessons take time of course. I’m referring to normal everyday situations that are better labeled what I would call instant reactions.
Take my back for example. I was angry there for a minute when all of sudden I have back pain. I was just sitting there watching a movie minding my own business when I now have this sharp pain in my back making it difficult to even sit. I’m guessing it’s what a pinched nerve might feel like. I got angry yes I did but then realized there was nothing I could about it other than go get some over the counter relief until I could decipher whether or not it requires medical attention.
I’ll be honest though, I was thinking just because I have a high tolerance for pain doesn’t mean I want to be constantly bombarded with it. It’s been a steady flow of aches and pains for the past few years but every single situation has taught me something different. There’s a lot happening with my body right now but this current round is teaching me how to be steadfast in the calmness. Instead of reacting I search for solutions knowing everything happens for a reason and this too shall pass, one way or another.
Everything is temporary, the only thing constant is change, as long as we’re not avoiding it. I’m doing my best to keep myself in the Goldilocks middle zone where no matter what’s thrown my way, I’m cool as a cucumber. Dropping that eff bomb just goes to show we’re always a work in progress, although I don’t have a problem with profanity. There’s a time and place for everything but getting angry because someone took my convenience with a parking spot when there’s plenty to be had shouldn’t be one of them.
Light of Love