“You know”, said my choir director after Easter morning service, “I was there that day when you locked your keys in your car and came over to ask for help.” She and I were standing at the very spot it all went down and I replied to her matter of factly, “you know, it’s also the first time I officially heard from God.” She had yet to hear my full testimony but I gave her a glimpse with some highlights.
I continued to tell her that it was on that very wall as I was sitting there waiting for AAA to arrive that I heard clear as day (in my head) that I bet there’s a message in there for you. I can’t say I was really contemplating going in because one, I had messy hair and yoga pants on and two, it’s anybody’s guess the last time I’d showered as I had been living in my car for roughly three weeks.
I probably dismissed the message the first few nudges until it became unmistakably clear that my next step was to walk through the doors of this quaint little chapel where I was ultimately baptized three months later. My baptism comes with another cool story I told her. 
After I was baptized I went to lunch with some of my favorite Filipinos at Dukes restaurant. On my way out I noticed a business sized card laying in the parking lot and without thinking twice I swooped down to pick it up. When I arrived at the car my knees just about buckled when I read All things are possible with God Mark 10:27
Back up the last three decades of my life and the fact that I’ve seen the number 1027 everywhere and in every form, especially on the clock. I didn’t know why I kept seeing this number but for thirty years it was everywhere, I called it my magic number. I do believe that was the first time my mind was spiritually blown in a way that left me speechless, and I’m pretty certain it was the moment that really got me thinking there’s gotta be more to my life, this was too big of a coincidence to be a coincidence.
As I write and reflect on this chapter of my life, the very beginning of the transformation I was about to embark on, I’m amazed once again at the amount of growth that’s transpired since then and I have nothing but the utmost gratitude for all the lessons I’ve learned and all the solitude I’ve endured to get to where I am today.
When I think about God and what that means to me I can say with confidence that I can see things from a higher perspective knowing that I too am God. So when I read this card now I see it in a different light so to speak recognizing the amount of power I too carry within myself. I now am able to see that I’m being guided by my Higher Self, which is also God, I am God in human form. And the best part about that is so are you!
Spoiler alert, when you’re praying to God you’re actually praying to your Higher Self. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, God is not a sky daddy sitting on a throne with a wand performing miracles. I mean no disrespect when I say that because in all fairness it’s exactly what I thought God was once upon a time. Now I know and think different but I’ll never forget the day I was sitting in my little chamber of transformation listening to Billy Carson and that’s exactly what he said. And then I said…wait, what?
That was the first time I started to think differently about what God might actually be and now fast forward a couple years and it’s still changing. The only thing constant is change, and it’s when we resist that change, rather than go with the flow, that’s when it can really get challenging. That’s when tower moments might be thrown your way. I’ve learned to welcome change with open arms and on every level. I’m extremely grateful I’m not the same person I was five years ago. Parker 2.0 baby, and proud in a healthy Leo Rising kind of way.
Who is most to thank for this wonderful, ever-changing, always surprising, beautiful and miraculous journey? Me, my Higher Self and I. And for that I say thank you. I do have the Pleiadian Council of Light and the Galactic Federation, there’s quite a few actually but truth be told most of my personal guides are me. It’s hard to wrap our human brains around but when you think about it from a quantum perspective, I have a finger of my soul in a lot of different places.
Earth is the only place where time is linear so when I’m asking my guides for help I’m actually asking different parts of my soul that have been to different parts of the universe in different yet parallel parts of a timeline. We are our ancestors too, how else would we accumulate enough lives to reach the status of old soul? I don’t know about you but I find it fascinating, and quite frankly, I can’t get enough.
When I read that card now, as I often do because it’s posted where I see it all the time, I now read it as All things are possible with me. We are more powerful than we give ourselves credit for and that’s okay, it’s what we’ve been conditioned to believe. But we also have the power to change our minds, we can certainly reprogram just about anything. Our smart body is the only thing ‘hardwired’ so rewiring our brains only takes the desire and commitment necessary.
We are powerful, magnificent, spiritual beings having a human experience. It’s time we took our power back knowing we’re limitless with no separation from the divine. I recently came across some notes I’d taken during one of the services at my church that I would like to share. It’s actually from Sister Saturday last month. I wrote…
You know what’s better than being healed by the goodness of God? Knowing you’re powerful enough to do it yourself.
Had I not been through the junk I wouldn’t be ready for what’s next.
Relatable source of hope…your testimony isn’t for you.
You’re the missionary…share your story.
Namaste…the God in me greets the God in you.
Love and Light