It’s not everyday I hear a message that has me weeping like a little girl, but today I did. It’s funny because here I am getting frustrated with my journey not fully understanding the why’s and what’s and doing my best not to go about my days in a grumpy manner. Yesterday I went to work annoyed I even had to go. I know it’s the wrong attitude but like I mentioned in my last article I can’t fake how I feel and this is exactly how I’m feeling. Side note, my autistic buddy came in with his Michael Jackson moves and thankfully helped me dance my way out of that funk.
What makes it even harder for me is the fact that I know I’m here to hold the frequencies of love and light and I’m here to be the positive when everyone else is not, and yet lately I feel like I can’t do it. So I guess you could say it’s almost like a double whammy for me which is exactly why it feels like walking through mud making it seem almost impossible to put a spring in my step, which is exactly why this message had me sobbing like that little girl who was once lost and then found.
I have to even pause right this second as I’m typing this to apologize to my invisibles for being somewhat of a bratty-pants over the past week or so. I’ll be alright as I always quickly recover but I’m thankful as I wipe away my tears because I know my team (she even said we have legions of helpers) hold no judgements and I already know all is forgiven even in the moments they take place but wow what a release. I can now move forward with grace knowing this information, that to me, makes all the difference in the world.
Before I even get to the message, just knowing how much I’m seen always blows my mind and makes me cry a different and happier cry. This message has been waiting in my feed for days, maybe over a week and all I had to do was watch but I’ve been ignoring it because, like I said, I was being a little juvenile. All I wanted was a little reassurance along with a big cosmic hug and it was right there all along just waiting for me to listen. Today I finally opened up that conversation between Kerry K and Emilio Ortiz and this is what she said…
What we wanted to do was hold the memory within us so that we could be like living libraries, living resources that could tell others from living experience from a 5D perspective that this is why the false matrix can never work anywhere else in the universe.
We wanted to be spokespeople for that. We wanted to walk through the false matrix, ascend inside the false matrix, and transcend into the divine matrix, so we now have that history and it’s fresh.
Instead of tapping into a memory… you actually remember. For example, living in a car, being on the street, having a disease, all of these things. Poverty. All of these things that will no longer be concepts in the divine matrix. We wanted to be a resource.
And that’s why lightworkers collectively agreed to have this unprecedented event of taking the body, the same body, into the 5D plane, so that we maintain the memory fully intact and can now become almost like we’re the living experience of that realm.
And as spokespeople who have walked through that we get the chance to share with others not just why the false matrix doesn’t work elsewhere in the universe but prevent it from repopulating somewhere else.
My whole life I’ve been overcoming these (major) obstacles that I now call training without knowing exactly why or how and halfway through this hour and a half conversation I get my first glimpse at what it’s all about. Not just living in my car two years ago either, I had a spout of houselessness in Colorado too. This one was by choice because I was living with someone who turned out to be morally corrupt and I pretty much feared for my life and well-being. Let me tell ya, Colfax and Sheridan are two of the most colorful (not in a good way) streets in Denver and I saw things I wouldn’t wish on anybody. One of these days Spirit might just have me share everything. Oh boy.
Speaking of homeless, you might want to rethink how you feel about these gracious humans beings. From what I understand many of them incarnated intentionally to experience poverty and filth so they too could be spokespeople on how the false matrix doesn’t work. Most of them also came here with total amnesia and no intention of waking up in this lifetime. Maybe we can think twice when we see individuals living on the streets and happily hand over our spare change. In fact, now every time I walk past a bum (for lack of a better word) I do hand over whatever I can and as I’m walking away I silently thank them for their contribution.
Why did I choose to incarnate with psoriasis is one of my recent questions as I’m currently tackling that situation with aggressive love. Thank goodness it’s summer and the sun is going to wrap things up for me but now I know. We’re all here to experience things for one reason or another but it’s almost like lightworkers are here to experience being the have not’s in order to show the importance of the have’s in the New Earth she calls Eden. She said Earth has literally been called back to the One Supreme Superconscious and will return to the state of the Garden of Eden, or 5D or New Earth, or True Earth, it’s all the same.
It’s where the ego no longer dominates your life choices. I love it when I get confirmation because this is almost exactly what I said in my last post and that’s that the new energy is all about letting your higher self drive your decision making while guiding your path. She also mentioned having an abundance mindset which is something I’m also actively working on. It’s not easy to get out of poverty consciousness when we’ve been programmed to not just worship money and material things but are also conditioned to think we may never have enough.
She compared the new energy to an apple tree, and every time you pick an apple ten more will grow in its place. No matter when or where you pick that one apple, ten more grow. Every single time. I’ve also recently had it explained with a simple phrase of if the universe created you, why then wouldn’t the universe take care of you. It’s all a mindset. Sure we have to do the work but what a wonderful place this will be with this mentality, right along with no judgments and simply living with acceptance. I don’t know about you but that’s a yes please for me.
Love and Light