Here I am on my last days worth of food and watching a movie to pass the time. I was waiting for the text message that didn’t come when I heard the car door shut at the church one driveway over. Let’s back it up a bit, about a month ago I received a text that one of the church members I worked side by side with in the infant room had passed away. Naturally I attended her celebration of life to show my respects and honor her as the lovely lady she was in this lifetime.
I sat next to one of my favorite people, who is also the coordinator for the volunteers and also happens to be head of the food distribution. This church that I’ll still call mine has a deal with Whole Foods and every week receives donated food about to expire. As I was sitting there chatting with my bestie she mentioned the food bank and I was like oh yeah, how do I get up on that? Long story short I offered to help her put the food away in exchange for her helping me out. I love win-wins.
So here I am Wednesday waiting for her to tell me she’s arrived, or at least on the way. You have to understand I am in the final push of my survival release so trust is a big part of this ongoing lesson. I’m also in the process of reprogramming my brain and being in charge of my thoughts. It’s imperative at this point that I master how to, not just be mindful of how my thought are coming and going, but also mindful of not letting them get anywhere near ready to spiral out of control.
I’m watching my movie and doing my best not to think worst case scenario. Haha, speaking of, that just tried to sneak its way back in. About a month or so ago I kept catching myself saying well worst case scenario blah blah blah, fill in the blank. After maybe half a dozen times over the course of probably a week I finally put my foot down and became hyper-aware of this crappy little belief system that was trying to work it’s way into my mindset. Needless to say I nipped it right in the bud and I’m happy to report it’s no longer an issue.
So here I am doing my best to relax and keep my mind free of clutter with the fact that I have one day of food left. As I’m just chillin’ watching my movie a little pop-up made an appearance in the upper right hand corner of my screen that read…
Get ready to cry
I knew it meant something, I just wasn’t sure what exactly. I’m on the threshold for a lot of surprises from Spirit not to mention the solutions that show the exact location to the lights at the end of my tunnels. It became clear a few weeks ago that there were going to be many lights at the end of many tunnels with the, not just potential to make me cry because there’s quite a bit happening, but a guarantee to make me cry tears of joy. Let’s just say the water has run dry in just about every well that I have.
I’m hanging by a thread and have been for the better part of this whole month. All for purpose though and all with their own individual deep lessons, spiritual and otherwise. Wait till I tell you about the happy face mug that brought me to my knees a couple days ago. Every single situation, every second of the timing that’s taking place on just about a daily basis, is teaching me something crucial at this final phase of my solitude.
It’s funny because right before it all went down I said out loud, because I couldn’t help it my mind had wondered a little, which is totally normal and is exactly what this training is all about. I said to my team of invisibles, at what point do I even get to do what I want to do? It definitely had a little bratty-pants tone to it. It’s proven to be challenging when all I can really do these days is wait for my blessings to come to me. It’s what being taken care of is all about, it’s having faith in the unseen knowing everything is possible, not to mention limitless.
When you’ve spent pretty much your whole life in survival mode this simple task of letting go can seem somewhat arduous. It can be one of the hardest parts which is why my Root Chakra (survival and security) is involved and why my legs get achy. In fact, every time I pass a test so to speak my legs get achier for about an hour. It used to bum me out but now I know that when this is happening, so is the process of releasing my survival that much more which now gets me excited. I’m so close.
A few minutes after my little comment I heard the car door and shot up to see it was my friend unloading the groceries. Guess this answers my question because I hopped right over to help her unload. Turns out she didn’t text me like she normally does because her puppy had her up all night and she was just out of it. That may seem normal or whatever from the outside looking in however I knew it was Spirit at play. I got a little worried because she hadn’t texted me but my Higher Self made sure I heard that car door.
Always the right place at the right time, nothing is random and nothing is by chance. And make no mistake everything is connected. We don’t even know it but our higher selves are at play all the time, whether that be us naturally channeling or our higher selves continuously talking to one another unbeknownst to us. Everything goes through our higher selves when we’re connected, everything.
When I saw the amount of food there was to be had, not to mention the fact that there was an abundance of everything I could eat, I almost cried. Had I been alone I probably would have however she was there with her husband and as much as I wanted to, trying to explain my situation and all the levels involved is pretty close to impossible in one sitting. My heart pounded with gratitude as I was once again blown away at just how special this relationship with the unseen truly is, not to mention how powerful it is.
Everything arrives when it’s supposed to and just because right this second it feels like I’m being squeezed, because I am, it’s all for purpose. Reprogramming your mindset doesn’t come easily, it’s down right difficult at times, but it’s so worth it in the long run. It’s the only way to ultimate freedom, nothing compares to peace of mind. Love does of course, especially romantic, but I also know that’s another light at the end of a tunnel. Everything is only a matter of time because I’ve done the work. It’s ironic and funny how time is an illusion, it only exists in the lower dimensions, but time is the very thing that’s teaching me the most right now.
I’m so eager to be on to the next adventure yet fully understand that this final push is the most important part where patience truly is a virtue that resides in my back pocket. Thank goodness I learned how to turn it into a superpower. It still likes to test me and I’m sure always will as a double fire sign who likes to get things done. Luckily I have resilience in my other back pocket. Let’s be real, I can sport a badass pair of cargo pants where every pocket holds its own virtue I’ve accrued along the way.
Hard work pays off, my discipline is coming full circle and I have nothing but the utmost gratitude for every single lesson I’ve learned along the way. I will continue to persevere as I trust and wait patiently to see what each and every day has to offer. Lessons, blessings, frustrations, realizations, understandings, they’re all parts of the greater whole that is unfolding where the best is yet to come.
222 = KEEP THE FAITH
Love and Light