Towards the end of July I declared August to be the ‘nothing bothers me’ month. Well be careful what you wish for because sure enough that’s exactly what this month has turned out to be and we’re only half way through it. What feels like everything under the sun that can bother me is thrown my way to see how I’ll react. It’s nothing new really so I can’t be too surprised. It’s also a chance to fine tune my new eating habits before I head off to New York for my second annual road trip with my bestie Ber. I’m well aware as much as I need this break from the monotony it’s also testing ground to see how committed I am and how well I’ve tackled certain disciplines.
I’m at the point, or at least am actively working on it, where I’m okay with all the hiccups, distractions and everything set in place by Spirit to test my patience, compassion and overall understanding. I’m finally in the space where I truly understand everything happens with reason and everybody on Earth has purpose, especially during these unprecedented times. I understand that everyone has a role to play in this great shift, whether they realize it or not and whether they’re meant to awaken or not. All serve purpose and all are equally important.
I didn’t realize just how important it is not to be judgmental until recent and I can’t help but feel as though that’s exactly why I’m still on the pier. Every shift and many interactions are proving to be opportunities to see just how far I’ve come with judging, or lack thereof. It’s also giving me a chance to fine tune my psychic abilities that are slowly but surely coming online. I’m in training to be a leader in a reality that operates around principles that most humans can’t yet imagine never mind comprehend. I don’t even fully understand yet, these multidimensional perspectives, but that’s what I’m learning and that’s why I’m constantly being challenged.
A lot is happening behind the scenes and on energetic levels and this is what is meant when they say even if I can’t see it with my physical eyes. Even though I can’t see it, my relationship with money, possessions and material security is starting to shift. I was taken out of the material world many moons ago and my need for material possessions is somewhat obsolete. My old paradigm for scarcity and competition has been replaced by an understanding of infinite abundance and cooperative creation.
I’m working hard to align myself with abundance consciousness knowing there is enough for everybody and every time I pluck that apple from my money tree ten more grow in its place. Aligning with this new way of thinking allows me to discover unpredictable flow and support that comes from everything I cannot see. For example, and on a small scale, Spirit knows my every move and knows what my future looks like so when one of my coworkers has to take time off work it opens up the door for me to work extra hours putting more money in bank account to replace what I’ve spent, say on a lawyer.
I believe wholeheartedly in the synchronistic orchestration of divine timing with just about everything. There’s no way to fully wrap our heads around how this is all works which is on a multidimensional quantum level. Everything is connected whether it be people, places or things. And this is exactly how trusting in the abundance consciousness works. You have to believe and you have to trust which can be two very difficult tasks to do when you’ve been living your life in survival mode.
I no longer operate from a fear-based way of thinking around resources because Spirit keeps proving to me time and time again that I am taken care of. You don’t have to convince me they see me, they hear me and they know exactly what’s going on with exactly where I’m at. Don’t get me wrong either, it’s not easy to go from survival to trusting but again it’s something I’m actively working on and it takes time and effort but every single day I get the opportunity to trust a little more as they continue to prove to me just how well it does work.
Everyday I’m also continuing to master my emotions while learning how to observe with compassionate detachment. Fine tuning my emotional mastery while recognizing the divine essence within each and every person I encounter no matter their current level of awakening. I’m learning to see beyond the personalities and recognize that every human being is an eternal soul and some are temporarily lost in forgetfulness. I was lost in that same forgetfulness until my awakening that was gifted to me by the transitioning of my beautiful mother. I think it’s so important to never forget where we came from.
As a matter of fact I had a customer come in last night and when she came up to the register she asked if I remembered her, and I did. I told her yeah you bought a crystal last summer. She was excited I remembered and wanted to thank me because what she remembered most was how nice I was to her. She said in a world where there’s so much stigma around homeless people she was just grateful I was nice. I told her, listen, that same spot you fell asleep outside for the first time was the same spot I used to wash my clothes when I too found myself hanging out with the homeless.
We had some good laughs exchanging some funny stories. I told her I was proud of her because she got back on her feet. She has a full time job now helping other women get sober. She was all excited about getting her drivers license too so I came around and gave her a big ol’ hug. I know how good that feels. My license was always suspended or revoked there for a while. I spent the first eight years in Colorado taking a bus after my third DUI. When I finally did get a car and my license back I had a breathalyzer for two years so I get it.
We are all here trying to navigate this earthly plane and the struggles are real and the emotions can run high and that’s why it’s my job to be the anchor who holds the light, the one who brings the information, the calm in the chaos and the one who understands that it’s unconditional love that makes this world go round. I have to lead by example and represent with endless gratitude and acceptance swimming in my pool of peace where every breath is a meditation, that’s my goal anyway.
This is a frequency game and I came here to play. I came to learn and teach others how to transmute energy and how to change their own frequency. Light and dark is a balance that humanity has the ability to pull upon in either direction. In a land of free will you can go as dark as you want or as light as you want. Everything is allowed by design and we are coming out of a very barbaric era full of war and the need to conquer and control which is why my light, and all the other lightworkers, is needed. We are here to tip the scales so to speak and help bring that balance back.
Light is that multidimensional force that isn’t linear and has nothing to do with the amount of it, but rather the intensity and the quantumness of it. A little goes a long way. I’m learning to accept the responsibilities of being that flame bearer, the match in the cave that lights up the dark in order for everyone else to see. They’re big shoes to fill but I’ve been reminded there’s no turning back now, I have reached the point of no return. When I shine my light through action (and how I act) whilst keeping myself out of any states of fear, the world ultimately shines brighter for it.
I am Fearless Aries, born to serve.
And my train is coming.
Love and Light