I opened my door to head to the beach yesterday and walked right into a black bumblebee. We’re all familiar with the metaphoric bumblebee and how it flies because it doesn’t know it can’t. I couldn’t help but feel as though there was more to be said when it came to this encounter so I found myself looking up the spiritual meaning of seeing a black bumblebee. In case you missed my metaphoric bumblebee… https://fearlessaries.com/the-metaphoric-bumblebee/
A black bumblebee represents deep transformation, introspection, and confronting the ‘shadow self’ while navigating the unknown aspects of your life, symbolizing a bridge between physical and spiritual worlds. These bees often appear as messengers during periods of intense personal growth, encouraging focused attention, resilience, and connection to ancestors. Black bees represent hard work, but their color suggests a more serious or intense dedication to tasks and goals.
The black color often signifies the need to look inward and I can’t help but feel as though this is a repeating theme for me these days, a constant reminder for stillness and deep introspection. Not to mention shadow work needing some fine tuning to keep me in check. Going inward while facing some shadows addresses those hidden emotions or subconscious issues that may need some fostering for growth.
For example, a shadow for the sign of Leo can be a need for recognition or praise, and while I don’t feel like I need that on the outside looking in, when it came to my birthday and not hearing from certain people whom I thought I would, it was a chance for me to be like okay I don’t need that recognition after all. I heard from my Higher Self, and Spirit, and those that matter, and that’s all I really needed.
It’s teaching me to not require external validation. Or fine tuning that reminder anyway. It’s also a lesson in humility and not needing to be the center of attention. This past birthday showed me it’s okay to spend the actual day by myself because I know I’m never alone. Haha, one of my Japanese ancestors sent me a birthday wish.
It’s showing me how I’ve outgrown so much and how to not get offended when I don’t get certain responses. For instance, if and when I reach out and someone doesn’t respond, I have to be okay with that, and without giving it too much thought. I’ve simply outgrown people and situations, they’re no longer in my frequency. I have to admit that that has the potential to get me down but I’m learning to sit with all of it and learning to let it go.
Situations are being brought back around to see how I’ll handle them and people pleasing is another one. I think this goes for many of us, especially those who consider themselves empaths. My boundaries are being tested to remind me that ‘no’ is a complete sentence and if something doesn’t feel right then the answer is no, or no thank you which is more polite.
I heard someone say something not too long ago that really stuck with me. It’s so simple yet so profound and kind of runs parallel with the Golden Rule. If it isn’t nice, don’t say it. If it doesn’t belong to you, don’t take it. And if it doesn’t feel right, don’t do it. My isolation is teaching me how to feel my way through life. I’ll make plans to do something and then at the last minute my spidey senses kick in so I change my mind and opt out.
My intentions are being tested as far as service to others and making sure I continue to put others first. That’s coming in the form of having to share what little space I have, as far as the main house goes, when unexpected guests arrive. This is nothing new however there’s been an abundance of out of the blue arrivals occupying that space for extended periods of time. My patience is being tested, but then again when isn’t it because impulsiveness is a classic Aries shadow.
When it comes to my journey, my faith is being tested and my need to remain positive when I don’t have all the answers is always being tested. Living in the unknown has its downfalls so to speak. It’s not necessarily a downfall but rather an uncomfortableness that takes some getting used to. It’s about not being triggered by that which I cannot control. Thank goodness seeing a black bumblebee also confirms you’re on the right path during a major life change.
My isolation is teaching me how to sit with myself, and my thoughts. It’s showing me how to control my thoughts, how to redirect my thoughts and how to disengage from them altogether. I believe this to be one of the biggest lessons and one of the main reasons I’ve been placed in this gestation period while I see what’s next to unfold. Thoughts are a big deal and can get the best of you if you let them.
Everything is part of the plan, especially for me who is continuously being testing for this and constantly training for that. Another Leo shadow that I’ve been confronted with is I had people text me to share their achievements to see how I would react. A Leo in the lower energies would feel, not jealous per se, but rather, and for me personally, like I haven’t fully achieved mine yet. In this case a Leo shadow would make it somewhat difficult to be truly happy for the other person. No worries here because I passed with flying colors, but it’s happened with two different people and two different scenarios mind you, so I know I’m being tested to see how far I’ve come.
I know my time to truly shine will arrive when the time is right. I also know I am on a very unique and special path, and to be honest, I’m not in that big of a hurry, or at least I’m facing the fact that I can’t be in a hurry. I know what’s to come will bring copious amounts of joy and happinessĀ but with it more responsibility, and with that also comes more challenges and obstacles to overcome. I don’t even know what they are but I have my hunches which at the end of the day, I have to let go of those too.
My isolation has also given me the chance to revisit some of my original narratives, or sources of information. The individuals who helped wake me up aren’t necessarily my go-tos today. I’ve learned along the way that many are, in my opinion, specifically set in place to feed us information. I know where their allegiance lies which really doesn’t matter because it all boils down to our free will and certain universal laws not being violated. Some examples would include individuals such as Tucker Carlson and Joe Rogan.
With time, and with the help of Spirit sending me information, I now lean on other reliable sources of information such as Dr. John Campbell, Redacted and whatever else I watch that just feels right. Information is becoming more and more difficult to decipher with AI, oftentimes it’s challenging to tell what’s real and what’s not. It can be especially overwhelming when first waking up. Here’s a pro tip, if it has words like terrifying, awful, scary, or anything doomsdayish, in the title, it’s not for you. Don’t give it any of your attention. Or don’t feed the system as I’ve heard is described.
My isolation has taught me the importance of blessing my water. I literally speak loving kindness into my 5-gallon jug of water whenever I have it filled. I bless my food before I eat it, I thank the chickens for laying the eggs and humanity as a whole every time I get the chance. I’m learning to be more comfortable with talking to my cells. I heard about this way back when but can’t help but notice it’s coming back around so this time I’m taking it a little more serious and have developed some routines where I literally talk to my cells, especially when it comes to healing my psoriasis diagnosis.
My medical journey, just in case I wasn’t aware, I’m on a medical journey too. I’m telling ya, I’m on an everything journey and I’ve been saying that from the get go. A fast-tracking-everything-under-the-sun-kind-of-journey. No wonder I’m exhausted as I’m still doing the medical journey but now I’ve added my light body activation. Did you know disease cannot live in a body that vibrates at a certain frequency? It is physically impossible for disease to reside in a body that vibrates high enough. Needless to say, I’m on my way to proving just that.
Our cells are listening which is why I’m talking to them and make no mistake, they hear everything. This is why it’s so important not to talk bad about yourself, or even think bad thoughts about yourself. This is also why it’s important to never say you have, fill in the blank with whatever ailment or affliction.
It’s imperative to say you’ve been diagnosed with something because one it implies there’s room for improvement and two your cells are listening. We can’t let anything define who we are and medical issues are a big one. I’m not defined by my psoriasis, I was diagnosed with it and am actively doing the work to overcome it. 
We are all overcomers and we take our power back every time we even recognize that fact that we can.
Cells in our body continuously monitor and respond to environmental, physical, and emotional signals in real time, directly impacting gene expression, inflammation, and health. Research shows cells respond to vibrations such as sound, and our thoughts/emotions can trigger the production of protective or inflammatory proteins, influencing our overall health.
Waking up can be a full time job and I’d like to think my journey, at a fundamental level, will help others with everything they need to help them along the way. Truth is everywhere just waiting to be discovered and a big part of ascension and expansion is learning to listen to inner guidance, to your monad, your soul, your higher self, the very aspect of you that always knows the way.
For anybody just waking up, or if you’re wondering how to opt out of the technocracy in general, I found this video to be quite helpful not to mention resourceful. In fact, I just inquired to learn more at my local community garden. I’m taking a tour in a couple weeks to gather any information I can about gardening as I hope to have my own one of these days. The only truly organic food is that which is grown in your own backyard.
https://youtu.be/7vf-ZLxJf4o?si=S4maoCJyQTIZYYsD
And here’s how thoughts become things. Simple, powerful and impactful…
https://youtu.be/dQ8wVeJkvco?si=Fk-4Fw2k7bFjVy6w
Love and Light