Make no mistake, Spirit is a bigger tease than anybody playing hard to get. They have no problem dangling that carrot to get you moving, or do what they’ve gotta do to make you feel like things are happening. They also have a big sense of humor. As if my synchronicities weren’t enough, every now and again I get a biggums. I stepped into the shower a few days ago and when I closed my eyes to let the water run down my face, a circle opened up. It was in that moment I realized I was seeing this through my mind’s eye.
I only got a glimpse but I knew I was looking at a blue sky. The unmistakable shade of blue wasn’t the only reason, I just knew that that’s what I was looking at. I remember being like, is this what people are talking about when they say they saw a movie playing in their head? I was completely mesmerized for maybe ten to fifteen seconds before the circle slowly closed. It was beautiful and it left me wanting more.
The experience helped me realize there’s a difference when it comes to seeing with your mind’s eye and having what I call visuals. Even thought forms that help you recollect something from memory are very different from what I saw in that circle. It was vivid, even if it was just the color blue, and it was very real. I’m not sure if this is the result of my meditations or simply because it’s the next step in my evolution. Time will tell.
It’s not the first time I’ve experienced something like this though, a couple years ago I had similar incidents, however not in my mind. It was the middle of the night and something told me to look out my window and when I did I had a visual. The movie wasn’t in my mind’s eye, I saw it playing outside, literally. It was different but the same, as far as the experience goes. I saw a scene where a female was basically wailing across the way at the entrance of the church, I can see the church perfectly from my bedroom window. I don’t even remember how much longer later it was but I saw what I’m gonna vote was (almost) the same scenario play out in real time.
Another night I got up and was nudged to look out my window again. This time I saw the street across the way light up, it was as if there was a spotlight shining on just a section of it because it was in the wee hours of the night. I want to say the street was under construction, or it was about to be. Regardless, they were both pretty cool and I’m gonna put them in the category of Spirit teasing me by dangling those carrots to keep me going. Some big winks to help me feel as though this journey has purpose, to give me that reassurance that we’re going places.
I’ve definitely stepped up my game when it comes to resting in stillness and focusing my thoughts. My perspective on the whole ‘enjoy the silence’ went from a warning mixed with loving sarcasm to appreciation and relaxation. Actually when it was described to me as nourishing the body, mind and soul, along with communicating with the cosmos (thanks to rereading my Pleiadian book) everything changed. I was like when you put it that way, let’s do this. Not before some kicking and screaming of course.
I have these post-it’s that have accumulated on my bathroom mirror, just from the past two weeks alone, each with their own, sometimes funny, story. One of my favorites is the one pertaining to the thought form I had, I’m going to say thanks to my Higher Self, from the movie Friday. This was the first couple of days mind you when I was still hesitant with wanting to meditate. It’s the scene when they’re about to break into Stanley’s house and Smokey doesn’t want do it. He tells Deebo, nah I’m on probation and Deebo replies with, quit being a bitch and come on.
When that thought form entered my head I laughed so hard I had to write it down. This is the sense of humor I’m talking about because that’s exactly where I was at. It described me and the situation to a tee, it was hysterical. The NAPS comes from a trip to the beach where someone was wearing a ballcap that said just that. It was a message meant specifically for me, and I must say it was necessary because it too helped me change my meditation perspective. It sounds much better when it’s referred to as naps, as long as I’m focusing so I don’t fall asleep.
Spirit has one of the best, if not the best, sense of humor. Sometimes I’m not in the mood for it but it’s always there. I have this theory that the older your soul the bigger your sense of humor. I don’t know if that’s true or not but that’s just how I feel. Needless to say my soul’s pretty up there, having a sense of humor isn’t just crucial for navigating life but imperative for maneuvering through a spiritual awakening.
I wasn’t going to write until I was through the month of June but I couldn’t help myself. It is a form of therapy not to mention my favorite creative outlet so when the first sentence formed itself inside my head, it was all systems go. I did have to hightail it to the library today, but that’s okay, it’s not forever, it’s just for now.
Love and Light